Emotions!

Seriously can't take this anymore!!

One of the things I seriously HATE about being a girl is that we have so many EMOTIONS!!! I am not going to deny that girls are fine one minute and thin prissy the next. And I honestly swear that I am in one of those moods for the past week. It is driving me crazy!!!!!!

Usually I feel like this all the time!!!!!!!!! but then i go to .... below

I am so happy one minute and then one person or something happen and then I'm sad. And then I read so much into it that I get upset. And then I get so over it that I just am mad. And then I realize how dumb I feel about getting mad and then I just feel bad. And then you apologize and so your happy and then it starts all over again. I am soooo over it right now... maybe my body is telling me something needs to happen??? Sorry this is my venting session right now.

And then this. Yes I feel like a 3 year old throwing a fit.

And then this...

And then it's just down right embarrassing...

Chantal and Matthew Stewart

The day has come and gone! You know what?? My brother Matthew Colt Stewart is married and sealed in the temple for all eternity with Chantal Vaiola Salazar!!!!!!!

I have already made a post about them being engaged but now they are married :) And I have my first sister in law. And you know what I LOVE HER!!!
Teli (what we call her) is beyond amazing her and Matthew get along so well and our families talk to each other on like a daily basis.

I traveled up to Salt Lake with my family (meaning parents and Emily and Spence) went to our hotel and awaited the big day!! I am a picture person and so when we got to the temple that morning I went and had fun taking pictures of the temple when at that moment I was having a person sealed into my family. To my brother. :)

I got to babysit all of the little ones and let me tell you they are darling, not that I want to have kids anytime soon though. Just- a little FYI there haha. I was watching baby Mason when I felt my dad come up to me hug me and say that I now have a new sister. There were tears in his eyes and a big smile on his face. Of course I couldn't wait to see the groom and the bride and we all went outside when they said they were ready and I started snapping photos. They looked BEAUTIFUL and they just GLOWED with happiness. I couldn't be more happy for them, they already started their forever family by getting married in the temple and they know it :) They know it will make everything eternal :) I love that :)

Now let me tell you something Chantal's family total party city. I don't think that I have ever been to a more fun reception in my life. :)
There culture is just so out there that they did dances Teli performed, Matt performed (which was beyond freaking hilarious), her performance group was there. There wasn't a dull moment :)
I even cried. I did. I will be honest. There first dance as a married couple playing "Only You Can Love Me This Way" by Keith Urban. They were both singing to each other. Just looking at each other like nothing in this entire world could ever get better than that. It was pure Magic. I can't explain it any other way.

This post is mostly though to say congrats to them. To their righteous choice to be married in the one place that they could be together forever and wanting that. To their love of one another no matter what annoying habits could come in the way. They love each other and the Lord and between that they will always be in the righteous sight of the Lord.

I am proud of you both and I love you both.
Congratulations :)

The Life of Jess and I

So sadness... I haven't wrote anything in a month!
A MONTH I mean come on now that is ridiculous if I do say so myself.
I was asking Jess what on earth I should write about, especially since I really don't feel like I have done anything! At all. I work, go to school, dance, choreography, sleep, institute, cleaning. And then I wake up do the whole thing over again every week.
But I realized I haven't talked about my life in a while!
Sooooooo
Jess and I live in this little apartment where we have a balcony and a living room that we never use.
We do miss having a bath.
Our bathroom is little.
So one of us has to either be in the shower or sitting or standing on the toilet for both of us to fit.... comfortably.
Having Jess only as my roommate is wonderful :)
When she leaves though and goes home I can't sleep :(
Its too quiet in this apartment.... and dark.
Our neighbors are super weird!
I completely know what I want to do for the rest of my life.
This gives me a happy sense :)
I think that I am going to go to SUU next year... maybe
Or a mission? ...maybe
Russia ILP? ...maybe
I love being a dance teacher.
I look for ideas all the time
I love THIS!!!!!!
ADDICTED I TELL YOU ADDICTED.
I think it's annoying that Jess wants me married so bad...
Marriage is for happy couples haha
I am happy not a couple :)
I'm fine with that. :)
I feel kinda alone though... just because EVERYONE and their mom is getting married.
Jess really doesn't want me to go on a mission.
But I have a year to figure it out... right????
I am beyond excited for my brother to get married.
Their invitations are freaking BEAUTIFUL!!!!
I can't wait to be home in less then a month!!!!!!!
I hate the movies but I am excited for Breaking Dawn to come out :)
Jess and I are seeing it in Vegas... with her boyfriend Matthew.
I think that is all that my mind is scattering up today
The END

Them Blasted!

COLD SORES!!!!!!!!
I don't like them... nope not one bit! 
Last night I was working and just with the stress of being a college student and having jobs, I felt a tingling sensation in my lips.
I come home and guess what...
I HAVE TWO SORES ON MY LIPS ALREADY!!!!!

  DO YOU SEE THIS!!!!!!!!!! WHY!
I have decided that I can no longer get stressed because do you see this!!!!!!!!!!!
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my lips are huge and there are two of them! TWO come on now :(





Now please excuse these pictures they are disgusting and after my Sunday nap. I really don't care what I look like, because Jess only sees me.
I refuse to get stressed any longer :(
My poor lips :(

So Irritated

This is going to be my venting passage for now.
It's just one of those days ya know.
Where you find out that people are saying things.
Where you have people yelling at you.
When nothing goes right.
When you get yelled at for something that isn't even your fault.
When people look at you like they really have no idea who you are, even though they do.
When the only thing you want to do is eat Nutty Bars and Pizza. And just lay in bed.
When people think your a bad person.
When people think your rude for stating your opinion and for caring about someone.
When you get summoned for Jury Duty 400 miles away.
When you know that you can't act like a child anymore and people are mad about it.
When you have to make decisions that may leave people behind.
When you have to face the truth and maybe even face things alone.
Where people are mad at you for having to get a job so you can actually pay for bills, instead of having my parents pay for everything.
This is the kind of day I have been having.
I can't wait for it to end...

Sophomore Year! 4 more to go!

I thought that maybe since it has been a while since I have last posted that I need to post about what is going on. And honestly I feel like nothing has been going on!
But then again I can make a list of the things that have happened.
- Got two jobs. One at the Main Street Grill another at a studio! I will be a dance teacher :) :)
- Went to Lake Powell as Ambassadors.
- Moved in to my new apartment.
- Unpacked "most" of my stuff. Decorated had couches moved in.
- Got a bed :) best gift ever :)
- Started school with all 14 credits.
- Went to Dance Auditions. (made a goal to be in more than 3 dances this year)
- Achieved my goal :)
- Started the most amazing pointe class ever :)
And I have a list of the things that will happen!
- Going to start choreographing for Castle Country Stars Dance Studio.
- Elder Holland is coming to speak to the Young Single Adult Stake!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!
- Light Bright will be here once again and I can't wait :)
- Matt and Chantal's wedding and open house :)
- Other friends of mine whose names will not be mentioned until the official announcement! Will be getting married :)
- My fall dance show :)
- And I guess in general just the exciting adventures that come my way through the next few months :)

I feel so grateful to be here in Price, UT. I really do. I miss my family a ton especially since I haven't seen my dad or my siblings since the family reunion. I have seen my mom within the last couple of months but I miss her too a lot! But I am grateful to be here on my own where I make my own choices and I have having to grow up by myself. No more running to my parents every time I fall. For now I have to pick myself back up and crawl, and then walk, and then run to my next destination. But I know that because I have the church in my life that this will be so much more easier for me to make decisions that will be beneficial for me.
I can not wait to see what the savior has in store for me next :)

Looking forward to...

Well let me start off by saying how crazy things have been lately and what I mean by lately is this whole freshman year of college. So many things have changed and I feel that I have really grown as a person.
I can definitely say that I am not the same person that left Las Vegas a year ago almost to date. I have learned to live without some of the things that I have been so used to in my life. I have grown as a person and I have also grown in the gospel. Being here I have really realized that at any time I really could have dropped out and not gone to church. No one was forcing me to go. No one would yell at me to tell me to get out of bed to be there at 9:00, but I have wanted to be here and be part of the gospel. I think for me this realization came and made me so grateful to know the gospel to know the church and to know that that is where I belong.

Now back to the original reason I was writing this. I have just had so many things to look forward to. And I think this might be better as a list.
-  Going to Lake Powell this weekend: As ambassadors we are taking a retreat to the lake and we get to have all of our teaching stuff there. Yes I am excited :) :)
- Moving in to my apartment. Yes an apartment not a dorm. I am so excited. :) It is a way cute small place one bedroom with bathroom, living room, and kitchen. And my serious favorite part :) We have a balcony :) I can only imagine how wonderful it will be :)
- Having school start. I am beyond ready for school to start. I can't wait for my classes and everything else I am beyond excited.
- For my dance job to start. I haven't officially announced this at all yet, but I got another job as a dance teacher :) It isn't a full time job honestly but it is a step towards what I want to do for the future. I get to choreograph competition girls from the ages of 5 to 16. I think this is really important and I can't wait to start choreographing.
- To cook. I know this may sound beyond weird, but I have not cooked in what feels like YEARS! And I know I could cook here and stuff but I would just feel so much better and more comfortable cooking in my own kitchen and cooking with food that I bought. Does that make any sense?
- I can't wait for dance to start. I have missed working out and loosing weight. I lost more weight in college than anything else. Its not that I want to dance to loose weight, but I honestly just miss dancing. I don't know if anyone could ever understand unless they were or are a dancer.
- Jessica to be my roommate. I can not wait for her to be my roommate again. I miss seeing her all the time and our late night talks where we just talk about everything and anything. Whenever we see each other we freak out and just laugh and smile. She's my best friend and I miss her.
-My brother's wedding. I can not wait :) I love Chantal and I can't wait for the day that she can join our family. Even though maybe she can ;)